designdebris

THOUGHTS
I think a lot, I can't help it. You'll find out soon enough.
(normally when doing something mundane)

A question was posed to me by a friend recently:

"What do you want out of life, mark?"

.. and i have to admit that it stunned me a bit... because it's not something that you get asked very often, so i wasn't prepared with an answer. Silence. brief deep thought and then the response "nothing".

Then obviously I needed to have some sort of explaination. Now I can't remember what I said exactly... but it went something like this:

I don't want anything out of life (thinking material possessions etc), i don't feel I need to have a house, or a girlfriend/partner/wife, I'm not crazy about money (mo money, mo problems - said puffy, maybe). i don't need an annual holiday, and the same thoughts come to mind for; a new computer, a better job, a nicer car, a bigger music collection, more friends.

90% of life is good, 10% of life is bad, but because we're exposed to so much good, we only really remember the very good things that happen... and because the bad stuff normally shocks and surprises us so much every now and then, we remember it all the more vividly... infact i'd place a bet with you that we remember at least 75% of the bad things that happen to us, and remember at the most, 50% of lifes good things.

The result being, as we grow older we get more cynical, suspicious, argumentative, confrontational, miserable, pessimistic and of course, less niave. Which also builds into a feeling that life was good in the 'old days'... when in actually fact it's no more better or worse than it was then, just that we are forgetting the good things about life and building a mental library of bad things.

An easy test to prove this, is to recall the last time you cried and laughed. I guarantee that you'll recall more detail about the crying than the laughing even though the crying would have happened further back in time than the laughing.... erm..... that's unless you're a miserable bastard that bawls a lot. :o)

Anyway I'm side tracking (as always)... that's my reasoning for knowing that life is as good as it is bad. Back to 'lifes wants':

So material possessions are out the window with me... I'm trying to achieve mental gains only now... y'know those little pyschological issues that we bury or just accept as being our faults... well, surprise, surprise... we don't have to accept faults.... we can work on em and right the wrongs...

... and now that's all I want out of life as of 20/08/2003.